Saturday, July 11, 2009
O.
4:56 AM
I kept crying recently hor?
I realised that too. Say, crying was never a part of my life 1 year ago. I have no idea when this habit started to bug me. Perhaps, it started from my weakest moment.
There are some things in life which I have chosen let go yet could not face it again, like this particular one. When we saw the resemblance of this particular couple, my heart panicked a fair bit. Many thoughts were running through my mind. He tells me I should smile, he tells me I should just roll my eyes and turn my head away. I wonder what would I do if I really meet them on the streets. I hope there's a friend with me. I know I cant face it alone, at the moment.
Kill this ego pride, prof.
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A perfectionist full of flaws is going hard on herself :(
Unfortunate happenings are never alone. They come in pairs, trio and so on.
You see, looking at the big picture, like a 3rd party watching your life, my problems are actually very puny but I have chosen to make a big fuss all of them? What does this show about my character? No, I am not putting myself down. On the contrary, I am learning to develop and build my character. I jolly well know what are my flaws but I just didnt bother to make an effort to eliminate them.
Prof, you cant continue to be like this.
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Hey, over the past week, I have been meeting many people from the past! Meeting as in bumping into them. Yes, I mentioned it before. I have never ever met so many people outside in my whole life. Seriously. For my first 18.5 years of my life, I have never in my memory met anybody I know outside (unless it was arranged for, duh -.-)
My mind is in a whirlwind. The above probably doesnt make any coherent sense. Whatever.
The Prof.
2:56 AM
D:
Monday, July 06, 2009
从前从前
1:07 AM
Cool, I found another chinese entry which I blogged way back in J1.
9th June 2006
all that i've got to pull me through was memories of you
那是从前。
i've pulled through the days when i missed you madly
这是现在。
我记得曾经说过在明天了断 一切；
从前的唯美，如今只能是回忆的精神枷锁。
从前的天堂，如今已铺满了尘埃，天使也不再唱歌。
那个疗伤的避风港似乎演变成了一个陌生的紫禁城。
瑕疵；
侵略了我们心灵沟通的系统，
缭乱了系统存档的密码户头。
虽然一切已风平浪静，
但是病毒吞蚀了我的自信。
原谅我没有勇气再次接受你；
谢谢你无穷无尽的爱 :)
that equilibrium we have reached;
it's time to let go, darling.
Wow, I think I found my style of writing. Hahaha!
Love,
The Prof
Sunday, July 05, 2009
11:27 PM
WHY DO I FEEL SO NUMB :(
CRIED AND SHOUTED FOR A WHOLE GOOD 6 HOURS BEFORE IM THROWN BACK INTO REALITY. JYTJONG, WAKE UP. THEY ARE GONE FOR REAL, FOR REAL.
THEY ARE GONE, GONE.
G-O-N-E, GONE!
I am down in the dumps; in doldrums.
ENFP
5:16 PM
Words, ideas and possibilities spew effortlessly from them. Words are their best friends. They dance around ideas, the more, the merrier. Imaginative, spontaneous, original and enthusiastic, they have a knack for seeing other possibilities, other dreams and options. The world is never as it is but as it could be, as if it were but an artists sketch begging for colour. They initiate change and often are prone to trespassing a few known boundaries to take themselves and others where no one has been before. The status quo tends to lack inspiration.
When inspired, they are fearless and tireless. Their energy will know no limits unless red tape takes over. Routine drags them down. Their faith in possibilities and belief in the benefit of change often inspire others to follow. They are challenging, ingenious and innovative. They will give their best to what appears to be an impossible challenge, a place unknown to man or beast.
They use metaphors, stories, images and analogies to make their point.They love theories and often shape their own. They see patterns emerging. Keen improvisers, they are rarely caught off guard, there is always something up their sleeve. The sky is the only limit.
They are sometimes entertainers, artists or otherwise engaged in public demonstrations that allow their ideas to bloom. Their greatest difficulty is not in initiating projects but in choosing among so many possibilities, setting realistic boundaries, establishing priorities and correctly assessing resources. (BULLSEYE)
Wow! This is astonishingly true.
Labels: personality
Saturday, July 04, 2009
soft sky
1:55 AM
"Prof. Look at the sky. Spot the moon. Very cool orange cloud shades!"
After receiving this text, I went to the balcony to take photos of the sky. In a span of 5 minutes, the transitions of the sky colours are really fast!
Love this :)
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I found this extract many entries back.
13th October 2008. What was I thinking back then?
Next day delivery.
当初的错误，今日的反思。 回忆，固然有温馨之处，却往往成为一种沉重的包袱。 情谊，无意缠身，令人束手无策。想埋葬，得先进一步麻醉自己。 不习惯独来独往的我，不习惯与世隔绝的我，想带着什么离开？
Love,
The Prof
Friday, July 03, 2009
no longer i
2:19 PM
Boo. Zoo trip was cancelled. I guess when it didnt feel right, I wont have the slightest consciousness that I am going to the zoo tmr! :)
I am waiting for 5pm now.
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Hahaha. I had the weirdest dream last night.
The first dream in many many months.
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Compromising. I learnt it the hard way.
Love,
The Prof
BLOP!
2:28 AM
Okay, I have not blogged decently for ages? Decent means my daily happenings & thoughts. Let's start with something random before I proceed on to my happening life. Yes, happening :)
I was at twitter earlier on. Pst K's flying over to Malang (Indo, near Surabaya) & Vin, my current classmate, a resident of Malang, is there now. I had the urge to tell her to attend if Pst's preaching :)
Somehow, it's like a nudge within.-
Yes, testimony time. I was reminded of His blessings during cell group meeting just now :) These were from my past blog entries in May, asking God for well paid job/s that I would like..
Ad-hoc and home based jobs.. I have photoshop assignments now :) Easy peasy stuffs, good pay. It's as good as doing things on autopilot :)
Well paid jobs.. I have tuition job now :) Considering that I am only teaching Primary 6 Science, it is very well paid :)
Jobs that I like.. Flexible hours, wont tie me up in an office, not the usual 8-5 or 9-6 office jobs, would not affect any of my plans, something different from my course of study for a more versatile experience..
ALL MET :DThe surveyor job is probably a bonus because it is really flexible and depends on whether I want to work basis :)
God is good :)
*Chuckles*-
Looks like I have to postpone my blogging plans because the bed is summoning me for communion :D Haha. Okay, happy photo to appease your anticipation. Lol!
I look like I'm short of 1 limb in this photo. Haaa!
Good night :)
Love,
The Prof
Labels: testimony
Wednesday, July 01, 2009
I see you, You see me.
1:14 AM
The Barrage Market
I love this photo :)
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In J's word, I am having a hotdate with pretty boy tomorrow :) Haha.
Looking forward the the master piece :D
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You have done it all. The trust is gone.
Love,
The Prof
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
10:19 PM
Why so superficial?
